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I am terribly sorry about the toenails...I have been there, but with just one toe, and that was bad enough.

My feet are also a half-size larger than before I had my little girl; it's crazy how that works.  Did you have to have the toenails removed, or did they come off?

I am glad that you are back, and hope you guys have a great weekend!

Tina

My sister needs to get to Houston, and she still is waiting for a space.  The hospitals were out of power as of last Friday, so she is going without chemo until they can get her in.  Hopefully, she can get there soon...it's been several weeks since they ordered her chemo, but the hurricane just threw all plans into chaos.

We actually got some major winds from the hurricane here, but just for a day.  We did get a massive day of rain as well, and since the storm, it's seemed to be much cooler and less humid.

Let me know how you are doing, and I hope all is better with your husband.

Take care!

Tina

I still want to get the extensions, but we are trying to do all we can for my sister right now, and I can't justify the expense.  However, it is definately on my list of things to do for myself, and I can't wait to get them down the road.

My hair sounds the same as yours...it is so fine, and I would just love that hair that you can pull right up in a ponytail, and it just look full and natural.  Unfortunately...that wasn't in my genetics.  My husband, on the other hand, has the fullest and thickest hair I have ever seen, and I'd do anything to have it naturally, and of course, he hates it.  I tell him the alternative would NOT be better...he takes that thick hair for granted.

Again, send us some pictures when you can.

Talk to you all soon,

Tina

I hope you two are well, and Ana, I am glad to hear that you are on the mend.  Yours is the newest and the only post I have read in a while.  Things here have been tough...my sister is very ill, and the circumstances of life are really starting to take a toll on us all emotionally.  I guess I have just been having a pity party for a couple of weeks now.

I hope you two are doing okay!

Sending a hug to the both of you,

Tina

I am praying for a better week for next week.

How are you guys doing?  Hope all is well.

How are you doing Ana?  I have replied to some of Kimmie's posts, but I don't see you, and I hope you are well.

How has the weather been near you Kimmie?  Have you all gotten any aftermath from any of these hurricanes?  Even 6 hours from the Gulf here, we have gotten some major winds and rain, but much needed rain.

Let me hear from you all, and hope you have a great weekend!

Tina

I had bruised a toenail several years ago, and I just kept hitting it, catching it on something, or anything you can imagine that can go wrong with a toenail.  I finally decided just to go and have it checked in January.  The doctor removed it...talk about PAIN!!!!  OUCH!  Well, it's grown back completely, and three weeks ago the nagging thing started growing into the side of my toe.  I went back to the doctor, and he took off about 1/6 of the entire side of my toenail.  Now, the other side of the toenail is starting to hurt.  I never dreamed a toenail could be so painful or aggravating.

In retrospect, I should have gone in the instant the new toenail started to hurt and maybe I wouldn't have lost part of it again.  Who knows?

I sure hope your nails heal on their own.  I am a big baby, I have found from experience, with anything to do with my toenails.

At least it's getting near fall...maybe closed toe shoes will hide my deformed toenail for the cooler months:)

My sister has gotten much worse, and I have been in a terrible state of mind for the last couple of weeks.  I am an emotional wreck.  I have really held up well, overall, for the last year and a half, but now that she's getting worse, I seem to be having a hard time dealing with it all.

I apologize for not being here.  I have let everything go lately, and it's starting to catch up with me.

How are you guys doing?  I hope all is well with you both, and I hope to hear from you soon.

Tina

I have gotten the party planning underway, and right now, I am trying to find a band.  We've decided to do things outdoors at the local park, and there is a huge pavilion, just in case it rains.  Today, I thought to myself how crazy I am for deciding to give in to a Halloween party.  I am sure it will be worth the fun when it's all said and done....I hope:)

I can't believe that it's September!

The way I feel now, I may just stay here:)

I am hoping for a better week this coming week...it's been a hard one.

Wonder what that's all about?

Things have been hectic, to say the least.  I can't seem to get caught up, and I have TONS of inventory that I need to post on ebay.  I also have tons of other responsibilities to tend to, and it's just getting to my nerves.

We do have some good news...my husband's sister had a new baby last night.  He is just a doll, and we are so excited.

I will try to do better about getting back on here with you gals.

I left the BA forum too.  I had accidentally marked a post as inappropriate that involved Bailey.  She then emailed me to ask whey I did that...the administrator had emailed her to let her know that I marked the post, and she scolded me and wanted to know why I marked the post and questioned our "friendship"?  Anyway, I got really upset...the forum administrator had no right to email someone about anything I marked or privately did to a post, and to beat it all, I know that I didn't mark the INAPPROPRIATE box on purpose...I'd never do that.  This is the original BA forum I am speaking about, not the "new" one.

Now, it is also not right for them to ask you to leave, because there are always banners or suggestions on how to start your own forum.  There is no reason that it shouldn't be okay for you to invite people over.

Sorry you are having to deal with this.

Hope your teeth feel better soon!

I am actually afraid to weigh.  I know that sounds weird, but I don't think I can deal with any weight gain without going overboard.  I am just trying to keep myself OFF of the scales.  

It is utterly CRAZY that I look for discipline, or gratitude, or comfort...whatever it is that I seem to search for...in a number on a bathroom scale.

Hang in there Kimmie...I totally understand what you are dealing with, and I wich there was some medication we could take to make this madness go away.  It's taken too much of my life already, and I refuse to let that happen again, but I am tired of the daily battle with myself.

I responded with something along the lines of it being something we really want but didn't expect to happen.

She then asked, "Well, can I see a miracle?"

I started to really think about what a miracle really is, and then looked from her child-sized eyes to what we take for granted.  

We see miracles when we just look at life itself and how amazing it is that our bodies even function.

Today was a day that I realized that we should be thankful for every miracle we receive, and I also realized that I should stop and look for miracles...that's what my little girl is doing:)

I am so sorry about that Kimmie.  My husband's mom is difficult in many ways, and it shames him to no end to have to deal with some of the things she dishes out for everyone to see.  I feel for you, and I pray that things get much better for you.

Ana, you take care of yourself too!  I have read your posts, and I know things are hard for you right now.  Let me know if there is anything I can do for you...that goes for you too Kimmie!

How are you all doing?  I keep you in my thoughts and prayers, and when things settle down a bit for me, I hope to post a bit more regularly.  It's nice to "get away" and hear from you here on this board.

Sometimes we just have to breathe and talk ourselves through it, and hopefully, those thoughts will become a habit that erases the negative issues that we have to talk ourselves through.

I often wonder what it would feel like to just be normal:)  That's funny!  If I could just pinpoint what NORMAL means, that might help me achieve that goal.

Yes, my poor sister has been involved in an almost three-year long divorce from her husband of ten years, who started cheating on her and just announced one day out of the blue that he didn't love her anymore.  Obviously, he didn't own up to the affair, but we found out for sure that he was running around, and my sister felt no other solution than to serve him with the papers.  He has been dragging the divorce out all this time because he knows that she is terminal, and he has openly stated that he had NOTHING to lose and EVERYTHING to gain by keeping the divorce from being official.  As long as they were lawfully married, he would get everything upon her death.  FINALLY, the papers were signed this week, and it's hard on my sister.  I think the finality of it all hit her hard, as he was coming home regularly during the week to do laundry and get clothes, and usually to stir up a fuss about something trivial.  She is better off without him, but she did and still does care for him, even after all he has done.  

As far as her sickness goes, he has had NO compassion.  With all of her assets being tied up with the divorce, she has had no additional means of income, other than disability, and she has been unable to sell anything due to court orders.  She's been unable to work now for well over 18 months.

My sister doesn't have children.  She wanted a child so badly, and they were about to start trying when all of this with her marriage unraveled.  

Going to run now, but I will be back to check in with you all tomorrow.

Glad to have you here!

Tina

How are you all doing?  I have thought of you frequently, but seems I am having a hard time getting here to post.

Ana, I am thinking of you, and hopefully things will start to unravel for you.  I know it seems like time stands still when you are making huge life decisions, and it is also utterly stressful, so you are in my prayers.  Hopefully, each day will get better, and in the meantime, I hope you have the courage to make the decisions you need to, and the sanity to make those decisions.

How are you Kimmie?  I have also had you in my prayers that things get easier for you, and hope that life's issues will start to weigh less on your thoughts.  

I am still having a terrible time with my back.  I had another MRI yesterday, and of course, I haven't heard from it yet, but I hope this is nothing that will require any type of surgery.  

My little girl is doing great with her legs...she is a true trooper!  This entire medical issue with her tendons has been far more difficult for my husband and I than for her.  She, like most children, just sails right through anything with flying colors.  I am so proud of her, and for the huge progress she has made.

My sister's divorce was FINALLY final yesterday.  She is not feeling well at all, and this entire divorce, which has lingered on for almost THREE YEARS now, has really taken a toll on her mentally and physically.  Keep praying for her.  Her next scans are in two weeks, and I just pray that she can go some time without chemo or radiation.

I have SO much to catch you girls up on, but I am worn to a frazzle right now.  I promise to be back tomorrow, and I haven't forgotten you!

Sending a hug your way,

Tina

How are you all doing?  I have thought of you frequently, but seems I am having a hard time getting here to post.

Ana, I am thinking of you, and hopefully things will start to unravel for you.  I know it seems like time stands still when you are making huge life decisions, and it is also utterly stressful, so you are in my prayers.  Hopefully, each day will get better, and in the meantime, I hope you have the courage to make the decisions you need to, and the sanity to make those decisions.

How are you Kimmie?  I have also had you in my prayers that things get easier for you, and hope that life's issues will start to weigh less on your thoughts.  

I am still having a terrible time with my back.  I had another MRI yesterday, and of course, I haven't heard from it yet, but I hope this is nothing that will require any type of surgery.  

My little girl is doing great with her legs...she is a true trooper!  This entire medical issue with her tendons has been far more difficult for my husband and I than for her.  She, like most children, just sails right through anything with flying colors.  I am so proud of her, and for the huge progress she has made.

My sister's divorce was FINALLY final yesterday.  She is not feeling well at all, and this entire divorce, which has lingered on for almost THREE YEARS now, has really taken a toll on her mentally and physically.  Keep praying for her.  Her next scans are in two weeks, and I just pray that she can go some time without chemo or radiation.

I have SO much to catch you girls up on, but I am worn to a frazzle right now.  I promise to be back tomorrow, and I haven't forgotten you!

Sending a hug your way,

Tina