My prayer this day is that I may gain the courage to look at myself and my behaviors more objectively in order to become a better human being. To gain more strength to control my thoughts before automatically reacting out of insecurity and self doubt and saying or doing things that I really don't want to and that cause me even more distress.
To be able to take behaviors that cause distress and take action to turn them in a different more positive direction that benefits me a lot more.
I'm in the midst of a fleshly battle and am sriving to get to a higher place within myself. This fleshly battle is all to do with the ego self. Its the ego self that feels defensive and a need to prove myself to others. I see this more clearly each time I react purely off of emotion. Not everyone reveals these kind of things about themselves because its hard to trust, thats understandable and probably the wisest way to go. I intend to work on myself in this area as well.
I also pray that I haven't offended anyone in any way. If I have pushed people away because of this then I guess thats just another one of those lessons I'm to learn.
