Just Checking In

Oh my goodness, thats exactly the way I feel. I'll tell myself that I know exactly what I need to do in order to stay feeling light and my best and that having that many treat days is definitely not gonna do it! So, I'll tell myself over and over in my head that we just can't be doing that, no ice cream, and I sound so adamant and strict about it like I cannot be swayed but then find myself the next hour or so with a bowl of ice cream complete with nuts/choc. syrup, and oh yeah it feels really good at that moment I'm eating it and I sweep the guilt about it under the rug but then the next morning I feel like a total loser!
I never have liked going by the scales because I know I have a good amount of muscle mass and bigger bones and usually tend to collect excess water so I always just go by how my clothes feel. Sometimes I obsess terribly if my jeans feel just a little snug in areas and then by the middle of the day they're somehow loose which always tells me it was more about water retention than anything else,then I start to feel dumb about obsessing so unneedlessly.