Tina, Amy and her family are in my prayers continually, I pray that God comfort and console them. I pray that God give Amy the strength to endure what she's facing and the comfort of knowing the love and care surrounding her. I know we've never met but I extend my love and care and distant support for her through this time. I sometimes look at these trivial little things I worry about daily and then look at Tina's scenario and feel really ashamed that I would be focusing on such nonsense that really has no meaning.
I also pray this morning for my long time "friend" (long story)Anita. We've been friends since 5th grade and we're both now 43. She has always had some jealousy there for me because of her always being so overweight and I haven't, although I've consistently encouraged her and helped her to lose weight and feel better about herself. I've never been too assertive and so she'll say things to me that are a little hurtful but I always just take it because I'm too afraid of hurting her feelings. Anyway, she has somehow made a point to look me up and find me no matter where I am and then she continues to throw out the sarcasm and put-downs in between the reminiscing of HS and laughing so I just go along with it for some reason.
A WHOLE lot more to this story but this is not the area for that.
Currently we have not spoken in weeks ever since our conversation right before ba surgery which really hurt and upset me. She has since called and left me a message saying "I don't know if you're still upset with me but you can call me", as if she didn't really think about what I told her about how she made me feel.
My prayer this morning for her is that she will see these things that she has said and done to me that have hurt me and be enlightened by them in order to be the best that she can be and so that we can reunite our long time friendship in which I see her more as my sister than just friend.
I also pray that God helps me to let go of any anger towards her for this, which I have had, and that He helps me have the right attitude of love towards her and the courage to do the right thing which is probably to email her and let her know why I have not responded back to her phone call. I don't even think she is aware of what the problem really is because I've always been too scared to let her know my true feelings because I don't want to hurt her feelings, but its all the truth though. I have never felt encouraged or supported by her, only put-downs and I now know and realize that I don't have to allow that any longer and that thats not what friends should do. I've tried encouraging and lifting her up and giving her money and gifts, but all she responds back with is put-downs.
Thats my prayer today....
